All posts tagged: anger

I hate you! No, I don’t.

Over the past few weeks I have repeatedly found myself in this almost unbearable state of frustration. Some seemingly minor activity that wasn’t working the way I wanted to would bring up this intense anger. I invariably found myself pushing harder to get the task done while yelling at myself in my head. ” I hate you! This sucks! It’s never going to work! I am such a failure! etc, etc ” And then the fact that I got so angry over ‘nothing’ made me feel more upset with myself. After a little while the feeling would pass, leaving my puzzled about why it had come up in the first place. Having done a fair bit of soul growing I just left it sitting there on the side table of my mind. A curiosity that I hoped my future self would better understand. Today I was at the gym doing some pushups against the wall. I could feel the muscles in my shoulder aching and was displeased by how weak it felt. “I hate you!” …