I’ve been exploring my inner body awareness in a series of guided group energy experiences with Denise Dee in preparation for the Brouhaha Festival.
In the first call she had us focus on our throat and what might be stuck there or wanting to express itself. A big, red dragon came out of my throat. It made a guttural hissing sound like a giant snake/cat. Each time I make the sound I feel fierce and strong and protective. Get out of my space! (anything that doesn’t belong there)
I’ve been working on this red painting. It started as a red figure curled up on itself. I struggled for a while to paint a tight human and it started to open its wings and become a bird. After a few days I pictured myself in the scene standing upright with wings and spreading to the edges of the frame to fill it all with my power.
I explored some photos of people and muscles and ended up with a second draft. Then, waiting for inspiration. Is it an angel? Or a Christ like mystic? Will it have wings or something else?
When I felt the dragon in my throat I really wanted to add it to the red painting, but ‘I don’t know how to paint a dragon’. So it just sat there, in my mind, stewing.
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It’s fall. In Oregon this means that the rains come back and it gets cold, grey and windy out. And for many people it means getting sick. Runny nose, stuffy head, coughing, upset stomach, fatigue, fever, chills and aches, … all that good stuff.
And then we say to ourselves: ” Why am I sick again? What did I do wrong? I hate being sick! How do I get out of here as quickly as possible?”
Wait! Slow down! Before you reach for that bottle of NyQuil or other pharmaceutical designed to suppress your symptoms so you can go back to work, consider another perspective.
Your body is transitioning from summer to winter. Everything is changing: warm to cold, dry to wet, outside to inside, lots of fun in the sun to busy work. Your body needs some time to adjust. Your gut bacteria has to change to meet the fall foods. Your mucus membranes and lymphatic system have to gear up for a different range of bacteria and viruses. Your body temperature and fat layers need to adapt to the weather.
Going on a date with myself!
side door of art museum
The notion of the artist date came to me from the book The Artist’s Way
a number of years ago. It involves going out by yourself to do something fun and creative to nurture your inner artist.
Last Saturday we went to explore the Portland Art Museum.
Since I have been painting more I realized that I haven’t really been looking at other people’s art, and can’t quite remember the names for the various art movements and styles. Time to get inspired!
First I went upstairs to the American traditional paintings. After about 20 minutes my mind was swimming. So many different styles of putting paint on paper!
my favorite still life
They must have spent hundreds of hours making some of those. Such intricate details, fine brush strokes. Did they paint with a single bristle?
Who even has time for that these days? How might I integrate what I see into my own work? Needing to sit down and stare into space. Digest the thoughts and impressions.
To find that balance point between learning and seeing all that I can and honoring my capacity. For this the quiet of the museum is ideal.
The different voices inside me get much louder and clearer. One is discussing intelligently the different styles and techniques. Another is tuned in to the feeling of the art, the mood of the people depicted, maybe even the state of mind of the artist. A third is feeling my own body sensations: excitement, headache, tired feet, fullness from lunch. The longer I spend like this alone, the more of me comes online to inform my next choice. Continue reading
Break all the Rules
Enter your darkness and Create
landscape turning into ocean
Do you ever have the feeling that your creativity got lost somewhere along the way? Is your life going fine, but you really wish you had more passion and excitement about it?
You may not have truly lost your art, but it may be laying around in your basement under huge a pile of crap. Unfelt feelings, negative thoughts, self – judgement and failure can be between you and your creativity. No wonder you haven’t gone looking for it.
Besides you’ve probably been too busy following all the important adult rules. Such as:
“You have to clean the house, feed the children, make money, pay the bills, mow the lawn, … before you can make art. “
“Being an artist is not a real job.”
“Unless you are going to make amazing art you shouldn’t make any art at all.”
If any of that sounds familiar, please read on.
Last night I pulled out my drum and crystal singing bowl and sang from my heart to my belly.
In the rhythm and tone old memories were shaken loose; heartbreak and dances with former loves, injuries and illness stuck in my body, anger and sadness, joy and peace. Like a wind blowing through canyons and over hills of my inner landscape the song washed and cleared.
My home was humming with good vibrations. Connections with guides and healing masters re-established I drifted off to peaceful sleep.
Just because you are special …
… and I have some extra time this month
I’m offering 1/2 off to the next 5 new clients
who come to me for Energy and Sound Healing
This special is good for long distance (over the phone or Skype) and in person (my office or your home in Portland, OR) Healing Sessions.
If you are wanting to be nurtured and enveloped in the deep love, if you have some things you want to clear and release, if you are in need of healing, now is the time to receive.
These will go fast, so call or email me to set up your appointment 503.975.8504 firstname.lastname@example.org
with Love, Catherine
I’m enjoying the fruits of my labor, pickled beets from the first episode of Fermentation Fun. They are a totally delicious accompaniment to my lunch of lamb stew.
It was so delightful to present these simple ferments at People’s Food Coop last month. For those of you who missed the class or lost the recipes, read on.
Both pickled beets and beet kvass allow you to enjoy and easily digest the many benefits of beets. These include nutrients such as iron, potassium, fiber, folate and antioxidants. Then there is boron which helps build bones, elevates, testosterone and improves blood flow, contributing to the use of beets as an aphrodisiac. Not to forget, sodium nitrate which is credited with allowing you to exercise for 15% longer and helping some British athletes win in the 2012 Olympics, according to Jo Robins in Eating on the Wild Side: The Missing Link to Optimum Health
These lacto fermented foods will provide your gut lining with a fresh batch of live, digestion enhancing bacteria. Eat fermented foods with every meal!
- 4 – 8 Beets (about 4 cups)
- 1 TBS Sea Salt
- 1 tsp Caraway or Cardamom or Fennel
- 3 TBS Whey or 1 more TBS Sea Salt
- 1 quart Mason Jar
- Filtered or Spring Water